Music and mostly prolix

Being born and growing up in a musical household meant that, I’d be encouraged to pursue Carnatic music even before I’d speak.

The following quote holds a testament for my upbringing. And, I am beginning to realize what a blessing it is to have lived life this way.

Music is there to enrich your life and make you aware of things in a slightly different way. ~Andrew Eldritch

Everyday, I was either made to listen to live concerts of reputed musicians, or listen to recordings from several tapes / radio relaying concerts of yesteryear musicians. My thatha (grandfather), my guru, Sri Thirupoonthuruthy Venkatesan would ensure that I paid attention to every little nuance and absorbed as much as I can. I reminisce these listening sessions with him which included Alathur Brothers’s (who were thatha’s gurus) ‘EmA Ni Ne’ in Mukhari, GNB’s ‘Manasuloni’ in Varamu, MLV’s ‘Nannu pAlimpa’ in Mohanam, Semmangudi’s ‘RAma Ni SamAnam evaru’ in Karaharapriya, M S Subbhulakshmi’s ‘SarOja Dala Netri’ in Shankarabaranam and many alike.

Until I turned 15-16, I knew nothing, other than music. I’d simply learn compositions taught by my grandfather, resume to endless hours of practice sessions at home with my amma following up on a day to day basis. 24 hours wasn’t enough but, amma ensured that I utilized every minute of it towards music and only music. Indeed, life was very different back then.

Sometimes, I begin to wonder the amount of things my amma has done, to make me who I am today. She was and is still a working woman. She could have progressed and moved up the career ladder. She chose to take it slow and never wanted to shift base from Chennai. She’d never retire on weekends, she almost single handedly managed home, aging grandparents, me and my erratic music schedules, very diligently. She missed being away from appa. So was appa missing all of us. But, they both made the conscious choice to do this, for me.

While amma was a disciplinarian, appa was liberal in every way. Possibly, because, I am the only daughter and he mostly got little time to spend with me back then. His enthusiasm to learn was infectious. He had an ear for good music and considered himself a fanboy of K V Mahadevan, M S Viswanathan, Ilaiyaraja and in that particular order (in current times, I tried influencing him, but that’s not affected him). He kept traveling on work and whenever he was home, he would narrate his musical influences mostly through story telling. It’s because of him, I got into exploring this side of the musical world (amidst a lot of resistance from amma).

“After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.” ~ Aldous Huxley

I grew up, and suddenly, I preferred silence over music. Which only meant that, I needed a break from this beautiful art, especially in terms of performances. And, maybe, this is part and parcel of a package called life. I got into academics. Was mostly an average student, but worked very hard to catch up with everything that I thought, I missed in the last 18-20 years. I just wanted to stay away from all lime light that music exposed me to. I never quit learning music, but took a break from performing, very consciously.

The last 5 years between 20 and 25 was a phase, where I listened to more music – of all forms. Call me a rebel, call me a fool, call me anything you want. But, this would be one phase that I’d call a liberating one. I listened more to Hindustani Music, Ghazals, Jazz, Metal, Rock, Fusion and to endless genres and forms of this art. I rediscovered myself through this journey.

Today, at 26, I continue to learn from Sumithra akka. She has helped me gain confidence and strength as a person. I see life coming back in full circle.

But, I am still confused, I am still insecure about what I should do, in terms of performances, my contributions for the art and a plethora of things. The battle is between art and art itself. Unless, someone who has gone through the last 26 years from my shoes, I don’t expect anyone to understand this, as well.

For now, I just trust that the art will take care of my being and help me sail through this phase and to a better one, at the earliest.

Through this journey, I had support and empathy from several musicians and I am ever grateful for their presence. You all know who you are.

My Song in Nalanum Nandhiniyum Movie

The movie ‘Nalanum Nandhiniyum‘ is an upcoming movie directed by Venkatesan Ramakrishnan, produced by Ravindar Chandrasekaran of Libra Productions. My association in this film project is because of the song I recorded for the extremely talented Ashwath Naganathan, the Music Director of this film.

It was that time of the year when I used to juggle between 2 cities – Pune and Chennai and somewhere around early 2012, one of my closest friends (name not disclosed here. But you know who you are) referred my name to Ashwath Naganathan. So, we met and tried on different genre songs, scales, feel, emotion, lyrics and everything a typical singer goes through musically. We had several sessions post this meet and recorded few tracks for this album as well.

After several months, I was asked to come for a final recording of the song and, today, after lots of ups and downs, I am credited for my song ‘Veetukulla Vaanavillu’. Ashwath wanted some newness in the song since its an unplugged version and gave me all the freedom to experiment. I share the song space with friends Madhumita Ramesh and Deepak from ‘Airtel Super Singer 2008’ and ‘Zee SaReGaMaPa Challenge 2009’ respectively.

The entire music album gets released in Geneva, Switzerland today.

P.S : I am really grateful to you Ashwath, because you genuinely believed in my singing and worked your way around to have me in this project. Thank you so so much!

P.P.S : As always, I share my happiness with you all – my supportive parents, my gurus, my friends, well-wishers and to all of you reading this post.

Nalanum Nandiniyum

Reviews :

http://www.galatta.com/tamil/news/music-review-nalanum-nandhiniyum/70094/

Concert 2 – December 2012

Tyaga Brahma Gana Sabha – Vani Mahal | 17 December, 2012 | 12:00 hrs – 13:00 hrs

Violin : Kamalakiran Vinjamuri
Mrdangam : K Sai Prasad

01. Valachi Vacchi – Navaragamalika – Adhi – Patnam Subramanya Iyer
02. Paramakarunayamam – Sourashtram – Adhi – Narayanatirtha
03. Sitapati – Khamas – Adhi – Tyagaraja (R,N,S)
04. Nilayadakshi – Paras – M.Chapu – Shyama Sastri
05. Namivachina – Kalyani – Kovur Pancharatna Kriti – Rupakam – Tyagaraja (R,N,S,T)
06. Kandanaal Mudalai – Madhuvanti – Adhi – S Chidambaram (Set to tune by S Kalyanaraman) (R)
07. Orutti Maganay Pirandu – Behag – Adhi – Tiruppavai

Concert 1 – December 2012

Narada Gana Sabha | December 15, 2012 | 12:30 hrs – 13:45 hrs

Violin : Thirumagal S Dinesh Kumar
Mrdangam : J Arvind

01. Sarasuda – Saveri – Adhi – Kotthavasal Venkatarama Iyer
02. Pahi Pahi Bala Ganapate – Hamsadwani – Rupakam – Mazhavai Chidambara Bharathi (S)
03. Emanine – Mukhari – Adi – Subbaraya Sastri (R)
04. Sriranga Natham – Purnachandrika – Adi – Muthuswamy Dikshitar
05. Kalayathagopi – Pantuvarali – Adhi – Narayana Tirthar (R,N,S,T)
06. Pagaivanukku – Ragamalika – Rupakam – Bharathiyar
07. Pahi Jagath Janani – Hamsanandi – Adhi – Swati Tirunal

VIJAYADASAMI DAY – A TRIBUTE TO MY TEACHERS

Well, let me begin with a funny cartoon that I came across relating a Music teacher and a student. 






October 17th 2010
Sunday

It was Vijayadasami day which is referred to as a day where students pay tribute to gurus. By doing so, they are letting one’s guru know how much they mean to their students.

To give an insight, Vijayadasami, is a day that follows the nine-day Navaratri festivities. This day celebrates the victory of good over evil, light over darkness, and knowledge over ignorance. It’s the day of Vidyarambham, when students are introduced to the world of learning. And in Chennai, this learning is either in the form of music/dance classes. For few, its also art classes these days.

My Vijayadasami day is always special. Its usually been the same. But this time, I thought of my past and wanted to mention few of my teachers who made an impact in my life. My first guru had always been my mom “Amma” who started teaching me shlokas and kutti (small) songs when I was around 2 or 3 years. She would make me repeat whatever she sang and slowly I began to learn. Then, my thatha (my maternal grandfather) took over. Since then, thatha had struggled a lot to make me what I am today as a vocalist. He bestowed all he could so that he could see me as one of the finest Carnatic Musician. This has always been his dreams. Thatha and the guru form in him never really complimented well. As a guru, he is definitely very strict and I respect him for whatever he is. As thatha, he is the best. Also, he has associated himself with promoting compositions of Saint Sri Narayana Theerthar. I wish to fulfill his dreams in the near future as a Carnatic Vocalist (of good standard) and help him with organizing music festivals and letting the world know more about Sri Narayana Theerthar.

Later, my music learning expanded to violin. I began with violin when I was almost 7 years but with all possible breaks, I would have changed atleast 7-8 gurus until I fixed with Akkarai Sri Swamynathan. Akkarai Sir, as he is fondly called by me, is truly inspiring. He is gem of a teacher and a person too. Never have I seen a person who had been selfless in helping others. He is a genuine human being I have come across in my life. I have had my share of experiences with him as a student, a family friend, a well wisher, a daughter at times and so on. It just didn’t stop with Sir, but, continued with both his daughters namely Akkarai S Subbulakshmi and Akkarai S  Swarnalatha (Akkarai Sisters) aka Sudha akka & Latha akka. I have shared a special bonding with both akkas. I have been like their little sister(at times an irritating one too). Words are not enough to appreciate their playing and dedication to music. To me, both akkas are role models. Its so true to adopt people of your age as role models than any older person because, you can relate well with the younger people quite often. I have never told to Sudha akka that she inspires me in all little things I do even in my daily life. But yeah, she does. These days when I stay alone in hostel, I would think of how as a toddler Sudha akka would go alone for concerts abroad and in India and still hold her never give up attitude. She is extremely hard working and a perfectionist. To all of her incredible talent, sir polished her talent and made her what she is today. Well, a special mention definitely goes to Latha akka who according to me is the best teacher in the making. She understands my weaknesses and filters all complexities when it comes to music and literally spoon feeds me at times. She allows me to experiment after she feels I have understood the musical concepts. I once upon a time used to spend days together in their house. I do miss those days. Wish, I can start learning the same way with Sir and akkas and become a decent violinist as well a good musician in the years to come.

Finally, about Chingleput Sri Ranganthan Sir. He is one of the best music teacher a student can get. I was lucky that I am his student. Along with thatha, I started learning from Ranganthan sir too. One thing I like about him is that he understands the pressure a student goes through and encourages them to do well in their academics too. I have heard a lot of my friends stating that their music teachers are extremely strict and all of that. But CR sir is like a cool dude types (atleast to me). He expects you to sing well in his classes and if you do so, you have made his day. There are days when I would sing the Kalpana Swarams perfect and he would just bless me saying, “Avalavu thaane! Idhukku poi bayandhudu irukulaama?” meaning “That’s it! Don’t be scared for these simple things”. CR sir holds huge respect among all his students and he can be extreme fun in cracking  jokes to us about how some great Carnatic Musicians would converse in his days as a student.

I wish that all my gurus stay hale and healthy and live for a long time. I also wish that they forgive me for not continuing classes until 2012. And guess, I shall practice to my best of ability.

KRISHNA – My love..


Krishna. Kanna. Gopala. Mukunda. 

You have various names. You are fondled by everybody. You are a spoilt brat 😀 And, you may want to know that you have been my love since childhood. Since the day I know about your naughtiness. Since the day I heard about you and your gopikas. Man! How many girl friends do you want? Hah! Anyways, I love you still. Am not jealous 😛

You are magical, 
You are divine, 
You are eternal, 
You are love. 
You complete me, my emotions. 
– Swathi


With my tears,
I watered the creeper of love that I planted;
Now the creeper has grown spread all over,
and borne the fruit of bliss.
The churner of the milk churned with great love.
When I took out the butter,
no need to drink any buttermilk.
I came for the sake of love-devotion;
seeing the world, I wept.
 ” 
Mirabai



Whenever I sing a song written on you, I am filled with high emotions. I am in another world. Its an experience I must say. I cherish the way various composers have described you. As saint Narayana Tirtha says, “Ehi mudam dEhi Sree krishNa krishNa pahi gopAla bAla krishNa krishNa“, Come here, my dear boy, bestow me all pleasure. Oh Krishna protect me. 


Love. 
Peace.

TEARS

True Emotions As Reflected Self 

Oh yeah! Tears reflect one’s inner self.. one’s true emotions.. Its connotation need not be constrained to  unhappiness.. Sometimes, you cry because you are hurt.. because you faced a failure.. because you were rejected.. but have you ever cried because you were high with happiness? or you were experiencing ecstasy of your life? or Imagine.. you just hit a chord which connected with your soul so perfect?

Well, I cried today! Not because I was unhappy, dejected with life, or felt broken, or for any damn reason that one may think of.. But… yes, I cried because I connect well with just few things in my life experiences… One such connectivity that I hold is with my music.. Music is definitely eternal.. When I listen to music, and if I am well connected, there is a strong link between me, music and my soul.. Its like liberation.. Its the bliss that I really can’t explain how it feels..

With tears, with emotions, with happiness, with love, I wish that this experienced moment be ‘alive’ during all times of my life!

PEACE.